Chapter 4: self-love 2019

Sitting amongst the paper chasing dreams and bad love songs of America

reading between the lives of the many types of love I choose to consume and create.

Choice is love. love is choice.

And now my heart is widening for new adventures within the sun beams casting upwardly to the universe

I say BE.

so the universe begins to shift as to make room

for the design intent that my power tower emits

The time of mastery appears as the once student becomes the master.

What I want isn’t always what it seems to be

What the world needs is more than my small ego can give

It enwraps me within the time love continuum. through my consistent choice of love and living in the space of gratitude is how I know that there is a source greater than myself. No one. No one gets out of this life alone. No one. We’re all connected.

so

me being me

me loving me

my authenticity

rising in the sun past the moon light beams of mass conformity

I do this due to My two young children look to me for everything

As my eldest is caught in between the light field bonded by old memories

as my old life fights stupidly against the misinformation of it’s needs

that ego

that fragility

that narcissistic fucked up vibrational energy of all about me

fuck sympathy..I want empathy narc life will have you wrapped up in all types of self inflicted questioning and reasoning

if you don’t know

Where I go

there’s no comfort in knowing

there’s comfort only in the ambiguity

of life and space every time the sun shines

rain falls to give new life

darkness is the womb of creation

I was born to give new light

So I tell the universe

oh, you’re gonna love me
You’re gonna wanna hug me and squeeze me. Cause I want to spend the rest of my life with you.

so I awake with the time of light and the bare footness of God

imagining, creating, designing intentionally

while loving me.

while loving me.

while loving me.

self love 2019

Photo by Leighann Renee on Unsplash

What’s in a piece of information?

What can you tell about a person’s ideology based upon the books they read?

Better yet, what can you tell about an academic mind thinks by what they consume (Journals, white papers, articles, books, weblinks, etc)

My list for the last month:

Photo by Brandi Redd on Unsplash

A Change of Frequency Announcement

“Alone, i am nothing. i have nothing.we have power.but we will never know it,we will never see it work.unless we come together to make it work.”
― Ayi Kwei ArmahThe Beautyful Ones Are Not Yet Born
Rethink this phrase:  That you are extraordinary.
 
You are only as extraordinary by the company you keep.
Your mind.
Your thoughts. 
Your community.
You’re scenius.
Who you are first.
What you produce.
within the legacy of love you impart to others
as well as yourself.
 
Fuck genius…
Genius is a dominant culture term.
Most genius minds are tormented, twisted and mad within their patriarchal thinking. 
We have to reach a bit further than what’s made visible.
CENTERING. Centering..centering centering
allows for evolution.
 
You, my people, are born to TRANSCEND.
You are born to be a CREATOR
of
New meaning
New thoughts
New culture
New experiences
New patterns
New connections
New consciousness
Elevated frequencies
WE create…
THIS IS AN interruption 
 
Let’s self master…let’s build our future.
#changeoffrequency #creativescience #creativesystems
I absolutely love his Artwork:  by  Art X Man 

No one wants to hear a black woman cry…

The image is by @ashelystraker of a  black queen with a crown made of energy silently crying on the inside. 

No one wants to hear

a black woman cry

they don’t want to hear the utter truth of reality

of how this society

is  not synced within the transmittal waves of the sun

or how the natural patterns of the universe

adjusts to the sounds of our creative souls

our being

that which was is

It is no more

being intermixed within a false reality

this global anti black anthem creates sickness

of  blame

at me

at things

at us black man

at you

while we, are in and incumbent slumber of perpetual nightmares

as some of you walk past within your lower vibration

waves

we still love…we still love…we still love

Remember our dreams are mere touch points of learning

they do not define our souls

learning the secrets of

our trueselves

cures

this unjust timing

as our cries go into the darkness of undefined love, misogynistic temptations of children not yet arisen

our tightly knit cries

of untrust

are just

what keeps the world in a midst of silent mercy

Can you feel the change of frequency

Where love resides?

let’s be silent…….

Its time

to recreate our reality again

within ourselves

our family

our community

it will happen only thru black women

No one wants to hear black women cry

except God,

the Universe and the sun..

The elements are our angels, spirit souls connected to our vibrations

So a nation can rise no higher than where have chosen to stand….

Sistas we have work todo within in our own skin.

Let’s lift our vibrations within circles

cut the tv off, stop posting, let our love vibrate faster the sound.

despite the daily pains we take to keep this world in tact

truthful cries covered in false reality

in authentic lies and systems

that keep creativity from breathing…..

No one wants to hear black women cry

except God,

the Universe and the sun..

 

 

 

Time is my everything…

Time is my lover

It is my friend

It speeds the necessity of flow

Within the veins of all that will be..

all that is known 

we once were romantic lovers 

we both figured out very early

Sentimentality isn’t the strongest of bonds for us to be in 

it’s not real enough for us

we both became disappointed quite easily

across vortexes

So we decided to yield to our natural waves 

within vibrational love

Understanding

Care

consistency

In knowing that time only tells with this one life.

Times intention for me is always in lifting me up

To be greater than what I can see within the moment

it’s within that moment I’m able to lay seeds

for the future tense and only time allows me to see

for me..I respect the laws of it’s frequency

So time…

It’s the angel of stillness upon a frosted corner in the middle of a lonely night when only the sounds of nature and the spirit world are active. 

it allows me to be courageous

It’s my navigation system within a jungle of oppressive systems

it allows me to be resilient

It’s the brilliant sunbeams that feed my melanin energy at the calm of every story that my ancestors have transmitted unto my DNA

it allows me to create

I allow it to love me

Time

Time

Time

Is my lover

It’s my friend

It’s my twin soul experience of what was before and everything that comes after it

it’ will be my forever meantime

Time is my everything…

my year of intentions 2018

Tonight I am writing out my year long intentions that I will focus on throughout the year.  These are areas within my life that I’m passionate about and would like to see grow:

  1. Ask empowering questions to God through prayer.
  2. Love with no fear.  
  3. Work on myself, within my family, with my children, to spread peace and love as deeply as we can.  
  4. Meditate profusely.
  5. Utilize my prophetic imagination within every endeavour.
  6. Share more of my gifts through the arts, social justice, and foresight.   
  7. Redirect energy that isn’t mine.  
  8. Focus on my lessons and not use the pain for reference anymore.  
  9. Give deep attention in growing the act, process, and gift of critical learning wherever I go.   
  10. Work with people who are doing similar community work, who are fearless within the cause.  

Wish me the best or you can join me!  

Inspired by adrienne maree brown author of  “emergent strategy” and “octavia’s brood” 

image credit by artxman “opulence”