― Ayi Kwei Armah,
― Ayi Kwei Armah,
Time is my lover
It is my friend
It speeds the necessity of flow
Within the veins of all that will be..
all that is known
we once were romantic lovers
we both figured out very early
Sentimentality isn’t the strongest of bonds for us to be in
it’s not real enough for us
we both became disappointed quite easily
So we decided to yield to our natural waves
within vibrational love
In knowing that time only tells with this one life.
Times intention for me is always in lifting me up
To be greater than what I can see within the moment
it’s within that moment I’m able to lay seeds
for the future tense and only time allows me to see
for me..I respect the laws of it’s frequency
It’s the angel of stillness upon a frosted corner in the middle of a lonely night when only the sounds of nature and the spirit world are active.
it allows me to be courageous
It’s my navigation system within a jungle of oppressive systems
it allows me to be resilient
It’s the brilliant sunbeams that feed my melanin energy at the calm of every story that my ancestors have transmitted unto my DNA
it allows me to create
I allow it to love me
Is my lover
It’s my friend
It’s my twin soul experience of what was before and everything that comes after it
it’ will be my forever meantime
Time is my everything…
Tonight I am writing out my year long intentions that I will focus on throughout the year. These are areas within my life that I’m passionate about and would like to see grow:
Wish me the best or you can join me!
Inspired by adrienne maree brown author of “emergent strategy” and “octavia’s brood”
image credit by artxman “opulence”
Thought it would be fun to share my 2017 playlist. I’m sure there are several more I could have added. Yet each song helped me get through a point of time throughout the year. Some of the songs are so random yet they caught my ear and allowed me to learn something. Next time I’ll lay out my mix tape collection!
Image credit: Krista Franklin
We started a few different things at work…one of which is journal club. I have no idea what journal club is suppose to be about other than sharing papers that “management” picks and we discuss. This can be good if the overall goal of this time and focus is shared so it can be mutually beneficial. There’s never any balanced discourse. Everyone agrees with what ever is going on and most of the time the literature is based upon some end goal that is never shared with the entire group.
What i think journal club is suppose to do is be a space for us within the Hub to present papers that are related to the mission and goals and to emphasize an interdisciplinary environment while learning from one another. I’m more of a transdiciplinary type of person. I like to create new things so sometimes I get lost within the rhetoric and space of this activity.
I’m hoping over time that this would be a place for authentic discussion as well as leadership development when it pertains to our roles within and outside the hub. It should also be a place where we find out more in depth about the projects other people are working as the theory they present should match to what they are putting into practice. It would be great that this could be the opportunity to practice mini talks and get feedback from our peers thereby creating a supportive collaborative environment. Instead it seems quite forced feed due to the lack of psychological safety within this new space.
Some behaviors I see that are stopping it from happening:
Instead it’s as if the activity is drifting between aims and goals within the department. Just a trial activity being lead from management and not from the people who are leading the day to day front (the people).
what mask shall I wear?
What pedagogical approach is right for the day?
Which identity should I choose
As a walk into “the game of orgs” that see’s
harsh realities with fresh scars all in the name of learning
Shall I stay silent today past the judgmental stares of inadequacy
Or …shall I take the path of bearing the fruit of my exuberance
while the distant light
of 19th century dominance (theory) runs from
the glare of me
who am I as a little black girl
to state boldly what I represent, what I create
to be more than what they call me?
what I’m designated to be within old hierarchy
who am I not to be.
playing small with the light doesn’t suite me
living life is not a game
I was born for a purpose
interstellar transdisiplinary intentions
yet everyday I walk into a field of discipline specific minds
where there is no consciousness
no ethical layer of honesty
Decisions are made within closed minds
with no emphatically lens
no hope of inclusion or visible diversity
other than who wins?
who really wins…
within this game
of no valor
Trust is of little value
Thus the game of thrones is playing out
So therein lies
the life within Higher Education
Which mask shall I wear?
which pedagogical approach is best for you today?
Which identity shall I choose?
Today was a day of tremendous information overload and processing. My attempt to move past this information overload is that I’m choosing to experience more than just taking information from the center to my peripheral view. Hell I live! I go out explore, interact, take chances, risks, give back thru service, travel, and I’m semi ok with the failing concept. See many within a dominant culture theory don’t understand the context of the word failure within the African american perspective. There’s a severe cognitive dissonance of expectation and learning when looking from this extreme lens. I, being a feminine spirit, that’s creative, and a black queen.. thrive in a world where everything is set up for me to fail (emergence theory). So when we talk about experimentation..hell I do that every single day I get up and come to work in an environment that’s not shaped within my cultural perspective of being a human being. Who I am, what I’m shaped from, and my intentions are all purposeful. Yet within the system, failure within work culture = I don’t get projects. So I have to be exceptional even if the powers of be don’t value what I bring. To be who I am and do what I do I have to be beyond exceptional on every accord.
So back to information overload…I experience life as a self care technique due to me being nerd chic within technology, an avid learning coupled with the creative gift of deep empathy. I can take on a lot from others if I’m not mindful of my intentions for the day. I can get easily distracted from the energy people bring to an experience. So I am very thoughtful (picky) about who I choose to engage in conversation. Call it how you choose. I live life as truthful as I possibly can so I’m being honest about avoidance. lol It’s real! It’s even noted as a contingency tactic when developing projects within Project Management Institute (PMI).
With that said, I create many beautiful things with people I don’t like. Crazy right..or is it? My main goal in life is always love and understanding. LOVE=LEARNING. LEARNING=LOVE. Learning can happen at anytime, anyplace, and with anyone. You never know what the universe may send as a messenger. So I grow through the lessons I receive through this journey.
Currently I’m working through a reflective process with my design partner, Emily. We’re attempting to wrap our minds around the first iteration of a immersive learning design experiment we just finished up in December. We also have two other teammates we see once a week Tina and Glenn. I love them as family. We’re an eclectic bunch I tell yah!!
So to wrap up my thoughts..my day went like this:
Then finally the best…attending a event at the Kellogg center for a Entrepreneurship and Innovation Minor.
Critique of the day:
Still processing some stuff..oh well. Just finishing sending emails and scheduling meetings. My OCD bestie Octavia talks about my inbox every time she looks at my phone. Lawwdddd.. oh well I’m about to watch the New Edition mini series on BET to relax!!
Until next time.
P.S I LOVE my life. (smile) Still tired as hell though lol