Getting over my fear of sharing my narrative …30 day blogging challenge

Last night I woke up in an encapsulated alarm.  My senses were going off as my body pulled upward so I listened for 2 minutes then slowly I grabbed my robe from the foot of the bed.   My mind said, “Get up and work out girl!  Get out all of this unprocessed energy.” so I did.

As I walked down two flights of stairs to my dinning room, I grabbed the latest book of my longing, “The eloquence of the Scribes by Ayi Kwei Armah with a highlighter as I went further down the magical staircase of my loving home to the treadmill in the basement.

I got lost into the narrative of  prose of Ayi Keie Armah. His story moves me in so many dimensions. At some point of time, I can only long to master the art of the narrative.

After my work out was complete, I skipped up hurriedly back to my dinning room to turn on my computer.  In my inbox was A.J Juliiani’s 30- day blogging challenge.  This was a Great challenge to start off the year.  I blog to myself quite often but there was somewhat of a simple view on blogging that he shared that made it more doable.

Why Blogging for me?

  • I just want to create through narrative art.
  • Express my self exploring a new way of writing.
  • Share and exchange with a global audience.

So for me as maybe it is for most…I just want to be free through my writing.

The rules

  • Write 100 words per day, every day for 30 days (you choose the amount)
  • Publish 3 posts per week (again you choose the amount)
  • If you miss a day, pick up where you left off. Don’t make up for lost days.

So Today is my first post.  Let’s see how well I do.  🙂

#mylifeasalearningdesigner

 

A change of …

I decided many moons ago within my soul to now only study and pursue African theory, literature, philosophy, and theology.   From 15+ years of colonial education, indoctrination, and self deprivation, this feels right to my soul.  Yet I won’t follow it under a prescribed curriculum.  The curriculum of my learning hasn’t been created yet and if I choose one it will be something that will evoke change in our current systems.

While thinking loudly, I believe my sensibility and pedagogy on how I learn directly evolved from the theory and practice of engagement, questioning,  unorthodox approaches, creativity, spirituality of choice outside theology yet within the history of its existence, and of intense immersion of love. Why wouldn’t I want to create something that has more fire than the sun?   In the essence of what I share, I am who I am due to having the most loving mother that was ever created.  Anyone who has been in her presence will say she is the most giving and nurturing person in the world. So in summary,  she taught me love.  As with many black people on the earth especially in america you mother is like your best friend in a particular way.

who I am right now, is a portrait within time, framed from a small black congregation of southern thought leaders who migrated  up North due to job shifts to Muskegon, a small industrial town near the vibrant shores of lake Michigan.   The water taught me fortitude persistence, quietness, and with direct intentions of every wave and thinking that comes out of me.  I’m more than Greek mythology, English prose, Capitalism, imperialism etc.., and I am not ever losing sigt of love.  My world hasn’t been without strife yet I persist within the bleeding lines of innovation, exuberant wisdom, and continuous insights.

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I am the future and beyond.

I am learning in its authentic state.

I am more than the eye can see

I give of myself daily to high wave lengths of existence

I follow my passion and desires with intentionality.

I am strategic in every breath that I take

I am more than my breath can fill within the atmosphere of impurities

I create new universes within the realm of the  living

I am a mother of new thinking

I am a facilitator of creative systems

I am love.

In its purest essence

and so forth love what it is….is my life journey and lesson.

This world is a matrix of paradoxes

Its old. it only seeks to recreate itself.

It is time, my people to love.

welcome to my narrative art.

 

#mylifeasalearningdesigner

EMERGENCE: From Personal Networks to Connected Communities

 

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I had a great time  last Thursday facilitating a  co-work session with a few of my peers at the MSU Hub on the theory of emergence. Our topic was specifically related to  personal networks to connected communities with emergence as an underlining theme. Those who know my teaching style know intimately that I tend to inject art, movement,  sound, and high media elements into my teaching so it carries over into facilitation as well.   We didn’t get as far as I wanted yet we uncovered things that I probably wouldn’t have gotten from a normal meeting. Check out the flow and artifacts that was created from the meeting:

What is emergence?

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My current thoughts on emergence:

  • Emergence always involves connections and networks
  • You can create conditions for emergence through connections
  • Personal connections are important
  • change happens through emergence
  • the whole is greater than the sum of its parts
  • new properties emerge at the level of the whole
  • unique properties that emerge from the whole of the system
  • Interaction is needed from the sums of its parts to emerge
  • Divergent thinking
  • Holism vs wholism vs Human centered design??????
  • “Art without Science is Nothing.” (Latin Proverb)
  • “Everything you can imagine is real.” Pablo Picasso

I’m still in deep thought on this!!  This will be my focus for the next two years.

Emergence Inspiration pieces shared:

Side conversations:

  • Does emergence have anything to do with the sum of its whole?
  • I noticed that the music from the inspirational clips where scary and eerie…does that have to do with creating something new and unknown?
  • Emergence relates a lot to Fractals in mathematics.  Its a from of patterning across different scales.   (Images of Fractals below)

First story prototype:  How do you learn?

Mindset:  Being Authentic 

I would typically start a session off with this question and introduce a particular mindset for the group to create a safe space for empathy to arrive.  Due to the close nature of myself and my peers that atmosphere is a given.  We  greet one another everyday with love and respect.   So I moved the group to do some prototyping without saying what they were prototyping.  How do you learn?  What does that mean to you? How does this shape you as a person?  These thoughts link deeply into who you are as a person and how you learn as well as teach.  Here are some initial prototypes below:

What did I learn:

  • Learning artifacts – definitely will use smaller clips and make sure I use a variety of learning artifacts that is inclusive of philosophy as well as systems design.  Although I do believe that many of the clips were a fusion of everything.
  • Tempo –  the tempo has to be set at the beginning as well my facilitation style and technique while setting the tone of each mindset for each activity. I didn’t get a chance to get to the heart of the co-work but that just means doing it again with more people will help shape the topic as it goes along.
  • Light installations – thinking about creating an art installation that represents emergence for me to use during other co work sessions.
  • I love learning. I will keep moving forward.

Deeper Reflection:

As an immersive learning designer, empathizing, patterning, transforming, and observing,  are many of the creative thinking tools that I use whenever I decide to explore or create.  Often more than most, I like to study subjects from a Social Science Lens as well with my Learning science background,  such as “How does learning effect adverse learning environments in higher ed?  Why is there a creativity shortage within the higher ed system in America?”; “What does the theory of emergence mean to me as a learning professional in the ed tech field?”,  Once I find the connection through exploration (observing, collecting evidence through interview, and developing insight through practice and intense study), I’ll use it as part of my personal story. Learning for me is making sense out of something within life.   It allows me to develop a language and intuitiveness to understand what I’m learning from a global view.  The theory of emergence is guiding me someplace.    So I’ll ask questions from a diverse array of people who are apart of my personal learning circle (circles make so much more sense to me than groups).   It has cultural design significance using circles that create a powerful framework to share, grow, and learn.   Women understand the intuitiveness and power of these as it develops an intimate space to question, heal, and grow.   Some of my larger circles are indirect at times…I learn from art, mixed mediums, philosophy, and movements of other people who may not directly know that they are apart of my learning practice.    Jeff Grabill, the Associate Provost of the MSU Innovation Hub for Teaching and Learning asked this provocative question that allowed me to articulate that specifically.

Do people apart of your learning network know that they are apart of your learning network?  Is it passive or active ? Why?  – Jeff Grabill 

I’ll dig deeper into this question in my next blog post it has many connections to the role of a mentor and mentee and its significance in our society as a whole.

From me to you,

@keesav  #mylifeasalearningdesigner

A Shift in my Paradigm – On Being more Decisive in everything

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Last week I decided that I am and will continue to be decisive in everything that I do.  I stumbled upon this decision while attending a DISC training within my work group where we all were put into fractions (DISC designations). My apprehension about the whole exercise is that I’m many of these classifications at different times of the day.  I’m quite understanding that these tools can be helpful for some…just not me.  I’d rather understand the individual and create an environment where there’s trust, openness, honesty, and friction..due to the fact I typically create work that grows in emergent environments.  Well.. It’s time to do everything much differently, so I’m embracing my dominate traits and excelling at everything I decide to do. I”M STEPPING OFF THE CLIFF EVERY DAY INTO THE UNKNOWN!

 

In deeper reflection,  I know the way I’ve been living the last three years has to change.  I’m not the same learner, teacher, mother, or friend as I was and the lessons learned from these experiences creates a space for me to share more freely my collective thoughts, visions, and ideas, so its time for my actions to match…it’s time for a shift into mastery.

when-teh-student-is-ready-the-master-appears-aspire-siraj-greogry-penn-insight-sessions2It doesn’t mean that I’ll be the nicest person in the room all the time yet this change allows me  to follow my path with stronger vision, conviction, love, passion and with eloquent fury.

From me to you,

#mylifeasalearningdesigner

 

#thelearningrevolution

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THERE’S A CERTAIN TYPE OF LEARNER…

that loves to learn

that has high regards to their education

that values being in school

that wants to learn to get ahead in life

that believes in certain skills

that loves conformity

that loves standardization

that loves in-person learning

that can take an online course

that can take Massive Open Online Courses (MOOCs)

then there’s learners who value their creativity

they have a deep passion in change

and what they do in life is directly tied into

this passion

they have an entrepreneurial spirit

they don’t wait for anyone’s permission to lead or create

they value exploration

they champion the underdog

they are artists, designers, innovators, activist, scientist, educators, or sociologists

yet they champion the idea that everyone can learn

everyone can be apart of the learning process

learning is a fundamental right of being human

gatekeepers no longer exist

learners decide what they become

their direction is born innately within themselves

educators are guides and facilitators

ecosystems are created through community building

The learners use what they learn to better society

this is the time of creation and innovation

we cannot transform what is and what was

into the future

with the same type of mind

referencing the same type of thinking

diversity becomes a verb, the sword to murder

all the old ways

personal bias is challenged

being empathetic is an asset

It takes a new mind

with a new teacher

with new tools

to shape a new world

So here’s my siren

I’m yelling

screaming

crying

smiling

frightened with what’s ahead

yet I’m here

in it

creating movements …

The revolution begins with re-imagining  our education

The system is dead

Welcome to the new learning revolution

Inspiration:

 

 

 

Gratitude. The building blocks to happiness.

I am grateful for...
a pad with I am grateful for….written on it.

opening my two eyes.

hearing my children loudly getting ready for school in the morning.

my 10 year old daughter who wakes me up at 5:30am so I can exercise.

my oldest daughter without hesitation helps her siblings to get dressed.

my son who wakes up everymorning with a smile on his face and says, I love you mommy.

a safe enviornment that I can provide for my children to grow.

the time I take to open the window in my room to hear GOD work his glory with the sounds of greatness in the morning.

two parents that are still alive that check on me frequently.

having  friends that text me goodmorning or call while I’m driving into work.

choosing to work creatively.

the gift to recognize the real from the fake.

the struggles that I endure.

the happiness I choose.

the opportunity to express my thoughts this monring.

Thank you so much for the love you give me to God.

I give myself to you.

Keesa V.   #mylifeasalearningdesigner

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It’s called living your life… Welcome to my new Learning path

I’ve never been the one to live life by another person standards yet growing up, I lived my life for my parents.  All my father wanted from me was to go to school, get good grades, graduate college with no babies.  My mom she had similar dreams such as me becoming a  graduate from Michigan State University because it was something she desired growing up.  She also wanted me to be expressive, a leader, and self sufficientgraphic badge of honor.     All while obtaining these “badges of honor” these skills sets for my parents, there was something shaping me to be who I am within this moment.

As my late Uncle Jr would say, “shiidd everything happens for a reason skinny.” See I don’t see anything wrong with wanting to make your parents proud.   As parents we all want to see our children grow and succeed in ways we never could.  I’ll never fault my parents for wanting my life to be better than their situation so they projected a bit of their desires onto myself.  One lesson I did learn, is that you should allow your children to be their true selves even if you don’t quite understand.  My parents sacrificed so much to see me succeed in life even their own personal happiness but that’s another story.  I’m so blessed to have a close relationship with both my parents in this moment of time.

J.Scott (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jXeXV0vgrtY)!

So I graduated from college, married at a very young age, had three brilliant children, investment homes, 4 karat ring etc. even took family vacations twice a year.  Deep inside as I was smiling living the american dream of marriage and being grateful for the experiences I was seeking, yet I knew I wasn’t living MY LIFE the way God envisioned for me. There was something crying out GET IT TOGETHER keesav! LOL  I realized the learning path I had chosen for myself was built upon social constructs created as a false ecosystem of what life should be.    I really didn’t believe in the white picket fences, love at first site, or the dog in the yard.  So I grew up. Then embraced my change.  Over the past three years I have created a new learning ecosystem for my life and started to envision different learning paths of my choice to take, with God by my side.   For a long period in my life I stopped listening to my intuition until I decided to take the chance, step outside this created box and start to live for the first time in my life.   This road hasn’t been easy.  I’m learning so much about simple things in life.  Hell…its been a pretty colorful ride!  See when you’re living in the moment there isn’t a clear smooth road with bells, whistles, and smiles.  Everyone is not going to embrace you because of the different choices you decide to take that doesn’t fit within the box.  Many call it the road less traveled.  It can be a very lonely road…   There’s too much stimulus of not being then there is in being.   Conformity is easy. I tried it.   As Rita Mae Brown states:   

Quote from Rita Mae Brown

Conformity doesn’t work for me.  Doing and Being just like everyone else is not part of my personality.  It just isn’t.

I’m a dreamer.

I was born to make visions come to life!

I’m here to create and shape a new world through learning.

This blog is part of my experiences.

Welcome to my new learning path!

I am light.  @keesav