collaborative death of innovation 2017

As I walk into the room

A room that looks vibrant, open, and collaborative

yet with no human life inside

I see smiles.  Yet the movements are not real to my thinking

my sensitivities are at an all time high

this space is not made for creative minds..creative thinking

the dictation admits

Only certain types of minds

to be able to function within this space

while chaos is quietly contained

so sophisticated play is not admitted

my universal mind

is a walking target

my critical view

is forsaken

“I don’t want her working on any projects”

so I’m unseen

unheard

and murdered everyday walking in that building

no true love for humankind because original thinkers are looked at as nonhuman

no respect of a new nomenclature of learning

There’s shallowness

that breaths coldness with the space

Whether it’s real or fake

it’s thoroughly made known that only certain people can partake within this turning over of ole bones of a system

Only those who are deemed competent can exist or be semi valued

While the axis of compassion, love, vibrational soul

have no way to live within it

There’s no windows to living life..no plants, no music, no dance, no living rituals that breath fresh air into the atmosphere

Super Egos rule this “game of org” types species

no humility

no fun

no dreams are allowed

Your passions are for our control and take

only disrespect of life

gives you the right credentials to paper create

The system within system within system is built for those who only see numbers, the roi, the  do-what’s told type of thinking…

innovation…that’s a play around word for old homspaien culture

Being revolutionary …creating authenticity within an inauthentic environment

an inauthentic system

means you can get killed, maimed, disgraced and murdered amongst the species of the old system

While going against the grain speaking truth

refusing integration upon deaths door

risk-taking is not valued unless you embrace the colonized mind of dominance

so a white boy can write out a CV of mistakes while embracing congratulations and people like me get a write up, a warning, or no projects.

This is a strange strange place of many strange fruits

misconceptions

rudeness for the sake of research

masked within technological pedagogy

A sad sad sad place without a care for redemption

a collaborative space of killing creative minds with no forgiveness

 

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Image credit by @hypeisdead 

a quick reflection on my day…

Today was a day of tremendous information overload and processing.  My attempt to move past this information overload  is that I’m choosing to experience more than just taking information from the center to my peripheral view.  Hell I live!  I go out explore, interact, take chances, risks, give back thru service, travel, and I’m semi ok with the failing concept.  See many within a dominant culture theory don’t understand the context of the word failure within the African american perspective.  There’s a severe cognitive dissonance of expectation and learning when looking from this extreme lens.   I, being a feminine spirit, that’s creative, and a black queen.. thrive in a world where everything is set up for me to fail (emergence theory).  So when we talk about experimentation..hell I do that every single day I get up and come to work in an environment that’s not shaped within my cultural perspective of being a human being.   Who I am, what I’m shaped from, and my intentions are all purposeful.  Yet within the system,  failure within work culture =  I don’t get projects.  So I have to be exceptional even if the powers of be don’t value what I bring. To be who I am and do what I do I have to be beyond exceptional on every accord.

So back to information overload…I experience life as a self care technique due to me being nerd chic within technology, an avid learning coupled with the creative gift of deep empathy.  I can take on a lot from others if I’m not mindful of my intentions for the day.  I can get easily distracted from the energy people bring to an experience.   So I am very thoughtful (picky) about who I choose to engage in conversation.  Call it how you choose.  I live life as truthful as I possibly can so I’m being honest about avoidance.  lol  It’s real!  It’s even noted as a contingency tactic when developing projects within Project Management Institute (PMI).

With that said, I create many beautiful things with people I don’t like.  Crazy right..or is it?  My main goal in life is always love and understanding.  LOVE=LEARNING.  LEARNING=LOVE.  Learning can happen at anytime, anyplace, and with anyone.  You never know what the universe may send as a messenger.  So I grow through the lessons I receive through this journey.

Currently I’m working through a reflective process with my design partner, Emily.  We’re attempting to wrap our minds around the first iteration of a immersive learning design experiment we just finished up in December.  We also have two other teammates we see once a week Tina and Glenn.  I love them as family.  We’re an eclectic bunch I tell yah!!

So to wrap up my thoughts..my day went like this:

  • got my babies ready for school.
  • made sure bills were paid for the month
  • attended a branding workshop
  • Pitch meeting for blog posts on the Hub website
  • shared some diagrams on Buzz words used within industry and academia
  • asked a whole bunch of questions
  • listened for  a different perspective
  • wrote a bio for an event where I’m the keynote
  • Figured out 4 different learning paths for a course
  • Collaborated on documentation
  • updated a course I’m co teaching.
  • Wrote a proposal for an article on reflection in learning
  • Created specs for image submission for a journal

Then finally the best…attending a event at the Kellogg center for a Entrepreneurship and Innovation Minor.

Critique of the day:

  • Don’t shush your Inner VOICE.  It’s who you really are.
  • If people are uncomfortable with your exuberance.  That’s their shit.
  • write and get your thoughts out

Still processing some stuff..oh well.  Just finishing sending emails and scheduling meetings.   My OCD bestie Octavia talks about my inbox every time she looks at my phone.  Lawwdddd..    oh well I’m about to watch the New Edition mini series on BET to relax!!

Until next time.

P.S  I LOVE my life.  (smile)   Still tired as hell though lol